I deserve better

Inspired by a friends experience…

Even when my friends kept telling me
About all the shit that he did
I kept telling them that’s okay
Even with all the trust he undid

Everyone that we come across
Has a flaw attached to their name
That’s just the price we pay
When we’re playing this game

I could have settle with what I had
And tell myself that it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize that I deserve so much better

You keep trying to apologize
Saying I’m so sorry boo
But you can tell that to somebody else
Someone that who

Somebody that will take all your crap
And learn to accept all your faults
But the person you see in front of you
Isn’t the one that you want

I could have settle with what I had
And tell myself that it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize that I deserve so much better

I could have accepted all the pain
No matter how much it hurt
Put it all up to experience
Cause it only strengthens my heart

But I’ve finally come to realize
That’s not how love goes
Cause I’m the only one with answers
Cause i’m the only one that knows

So glad I didn’t settle for what I had
Cause I know how much I matter
I should have listened to how it was bad
And I realized I demand so much better

Smoke and Mirrors

You came into my life
And tricked me into believing
How I could I believe the words you said
When you were so decieving

You worked your magic on me
I was so quick to fall
With every lie you told me
I would give you my all

But the illusion is slowly fading
I’m seeing past all your lies
I’ve found out how to get wiser
No longer will you trick me with your eyes

Now I’m breaking through the mirror
And seeing you for what you are
No longer will I be blinded by
Your undeserving heart

Cause I found out that your love
Is just smoke and mirrors
Why did I fall so easily
When ever you came near

You somehow mystified my heart
And hypnotized me with your stare
But you never truly loved me
You never really cared

But the mirror is now broken
And everything is clear as day
No longer will I be tricked by
All the lies that you’d say

So Crazy Over You

I’m so tired of getting knocked down
When my heart doesn’t even make a sound
Why must you keep putting my through all of this
Then trying to end it with a kiss

You’ve hurt me so many times before
Do you even know what you’re searching for?
You need to stop haunting all of my dreams
Cause nothing is ever what it seems

You’ve found your way inside my mind
No matter what I do or say
You never let go of your hold on me
You are driving me so crazy
So crazy over you

Why must you do all of this to me
You’re making me lose my sanity
When I was once so in love with you
Has been torn apart by the things you do

The way you ripped my heart in two
With all of the shit that we’ve been through
No more will you haunt me while I sleep
Cause I’m so over you

No Longer my Sentence to Bare

There was always something about us
Something just didn’t feel right
All of the conversations we had
Kept turning into another fight

We kept trying to make it work
But we each have our own point of view
And no matter how hard you try
I won’t fall back in love with you

So many hurtful things were said
So much things you can’t take back
You don’t know how much you hurt me
And my heart’s bound to crack

So now I’m ready to escape my cell
It was no longer my sentence to keep
But you tried to push me back in
when i was ready take the leap

Who knew my defences could be so strong
Never realized how fast they could be built
Till you tried to break me down
And it shown the strength I was dealt

I’ve now learned how to stand my ground
And my will is as thick is steel
You will never ever break this heart
Or get my heart to feel

This person who was once a slave
To a love that wasn’t meant to be
Has found the strength deep inside
to finally break free

Break The Chain

So many times I wish I told you
So many times I would take back
I wish I had the strength to tell you
How you made my life a wreck

But in my heart I kept holding on
Wishing for a better day to come
When you would one day be on my side
Instead of making me afraid to run

You had a chain around my heart
And you never let me loose
When will you learn to just let go
Instead of creating me a noose

I’m so tired of being someone’s slave
I’m so ready to just break free
This heart is ready to come unbound
And to learn to just love me

The only person that should be holding
Onto this heart I call my own
Is the one that won’t ever let it down
And treat me like a king to their throne

Tell Me the Truth

Here I am waiting on you
Why won’t you just tell me the truth
The time keeps on passing by
between me and you

I’ve been waiting for you too long
How long will I need to be strong
Will I ever learn the truth
Cause I don’t know where I belong

Has enough time been good for you
Does it help you know what to do
When will time help you figure out
About what I really mean to you

When will the truth finally come out
What is our future really about
Are we two hearts that beat as one
When will the words slip out your mouth

It feels like i’ve been waiting forever
Is our love truly there
If i’m not worth keeping around
Then I’m no longer your’s to bare

Cause this heart has been stuck for too long
And I’m tired of playing the same song
So let me put my heart to rest
Cause you are no longer my best

Hollow

What was once breaming with life
Has turned into a hollowed shell
What happened to this heart of mine
What dragged me through hell

It’s been through so many losts
So many loves that never was
I try to bring it back to life
But nothing ever does

I try so hard to keep on looking
For someone to bring back the spark
But no matter what I try to do
I’m still left there in the dark

When will the light come on back
To this hollowed shell of mine
I guess only time can tell
If there’s happiness to find