How you Left Me

I spent so many lonely nights
Alone in my bed
Trying to forget about the past
Get you out my head

You’ve left such a big hole when
You left me that day
Not sure how I feel right now
If you came back here today

But if you came back again
I guess one last time couldn’t hurt
With everything going on in my life
Could it get any worse

Then how you left me

Cause one more night alone with you
Think of all the fun we could have
But is that night really worth having
If i’m reminded of what I had

Reminded of what was lost
All that pain you threw my way
I know you’re here for just one night
But I still wish you would stay

Just one more night

But with everything going on
Could it get any worse

Then how you left me

Just one night would be like heaven
After all the hell you put me through
Cause since the day you left me
Loneliness is all I knew

But for once I want to be the one
That ends this game we play
I want to be the one that says goodbye
Cause I don’t want you to stay
Anymore

So if you came back again
It’s my last time to hurt
Cause after everything i’ve faced
I know how much I am worth

Cause i’m worth so much more

Then how you left me

 

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Be Still My Heart

Another familiar situation
Another time for me to question
Is this going anywhere
Or is this just infatuation​​​

Is there a future with us
Will it really last this time
Will you hold me forever
Can I really call you mine

Be still my heart
Cause I’m not ready for it to break
Will you please let me go
Cause I don’t want to admit another mistake
Be still this heart

We’ve been on and off again
But why can’t I let you go
Am I asking for the answers
That I already know

Cause i’m so tired of being hurt
So tired of feelings I can’t decide
Why can’t I ever see the truth
When I look into your eyes

Be still my heart
Cause I’m not ready for it to break
Will you please let me go
Cause I don’t want to admit another mistake
Be still this heart

Now i’ve seen the end of this
And now i’m tearing myself away
I’d rather hurt to be happy
Then be in misery another day

No longer will I go through this
You won’t cause me no more pain
It’s time for me to start over
So my heart can beat again

So be still my heart
Cause this is the last time it will break
I finally let you go
Even if I have to admit another mistake
Be still my heart

Cause I know that
You will beat once again

Stuck on Repeat

There’s this song stuck on repeat
It keeps playing in my head
Thinking about how we were together
And about everything you said

And I keep waiting to hear
Another song start to play
But the same old song keeps playing
No matter what I do or say

Cause you struck a chord
By playing with my heart
You had in your hands
Now your tearing it apart

When will this song ever end

What can I do to change
What keeps coming to my ears
I’m so tired of reliving
My own darkest fears

This song keeps haunting me
And when I think it’s almost gone
I fall in love with someone
That makes me wish I was alone

Cause you struck a chord
By playing with my heart
You had in your hands
Now your tearing it apart

When will this song ever end

Then you came into my life
You were music to my ears
Who knew my life could change so fast
After wiping away so many tears

Now you struck a different chord in me
And played a different song
You had my heart in your hands
But I felt at home
But I felt at home

I Deserve Better

Inspired by a friends experience…

Even when my friends kept telling me
About all the shit you did
I kept telling them that it’s okay
Even with all the trust you undid

Everyone that we come across
Has a flaw attached to their name
That’s just the price that we pay
When we’re playing this game

I could have settled with what I had
Tell myself it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize I deserve so much better

You keep trying to apologize to me
Saying I’m so sorry boo
But you can tell that to somebody else
Who will trust someone like you

Somebody that will take all your crap
And learn to accept all your faults
But the person you see in front of you
Isn’t the one that you want

I could have settled with what I had
Tell myself it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize I deserve so much better

I could have accepted all the pain
No matter how much it really hurt
Put it all up to experience
Cause it only strengthens my heart

But I’ve finally come to realize that
That’s not how real love goes
Cause I’m the only one with answers
Cause i’m the only one that know’s

So glad I didn’t settle for what I had
Cause I know how much I matter
I should have listened to how it was bad
And demand so much better

Smoke and Mirrors

You came into my life
And tricked me into believing
How I could I believe the words you said
When you were so decieving

You worked your magic on me
I was so quick to fall
With every lie you told me
I would give you my all

But the illusion is slowly fading
I’m seeing past all your lies
I’ve found out how to get wiser
No longer will you trick me with your eyes

Now I’m breaking through the mirror
And seeing you for what you are
No longer will I be blinded by
Your undeserving heart

Cause I found out that your love
Is just smoke and mirrors
Why did I fall so easily
When ever you came near

You somehow mystified my heart
And hypnotized me with your stare
But you never truly loved me
You never really cared

But the mirror is now broken
And everything is clear as day
No longer will I be tricked by
All the lies that you’d say

So Crazy Over You

I’m so tired of getting knocked down
When my heart doesn’t even make a sound
Why must you keep putting my through all of this
Then trying to end it with a kiss

You’ve hurt me so many times before
Do you even know what you’re searching for?
You need to stop haunting all of my dreams
Cause nothing is ever what it seems

You’ve found your way inside my mind
No matter what I do or say
You never let go of your hold on me
You are driving me so crazy
So crazy over you

Why must you do all of this to me
You’re making me lose my sanity
When I was once so in love with you
Has been torn apart by the things you do

The way you ripped my heart in two
With all of the shit that we’ve been through
No more will you haunt me while I sleep
Cause I’m so over you

No Longer my Sentence to Bare

There was always something about us
Something just didn’t feel right
All of the conversations we had
Kept turning into another fight

We kept trying to make it work
But we each have our own point of view
And no matter how hard you try
I won’t fall back in love with you

So many hurtful things were said
So much things you can’t take back
You don’t know how much you hurt me
And my heart’s bound to crack

So now I’m ready to escape my cell
It was no longer my sentence to keep
But you tried to push me back in
when i was ready take the leap

Who knew my defences could be so strong
Never realized how fast they could be built
Till you tried to break me down
And it shown the strength I was dealt

I’ve now learned how to stand my ground
And my will is as thick is steel
You will never ever break this heart
Or get my heart to feel

This person who was once a slave
To a love that wasn’t meant to be
Has found the strength deep inside
to finally break free