I deserve better

Inspired by a friends experience…

Even when my friends kept telling me
About all the shit that he did
I kept telling them that’s okay
Even with all the trust he undid

Everyone that we come across
Has a flaw attached to their name
That’s just the price we pay
When we’re playing this game

I could have settle with what I had
And tell myself that it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize that I deserve so much better

You keep trying to apologize
Saying I’m so sorry boo
But you can tell that to somebody else
Someone that who

Somebody that will take all your crap
And learn to accept all your faults
But the person you see in front of you
Isn’t the one that you want

I could have settle with what I had
And tell myself that it didn’t matter
But as I tell myself it wasn’t that bad
I realize that I deserve so much better

I could have accepted all the pain
No matter how much it hurt
Put it all up to experience
Cause it only strengthens my heart

But I’ve finally come to realize
That’s not how love goes
Cause I’m the only one with answers
Cause i’m the only one that knows

So glad I didn’t settle for what I had
Cause I know how much I matter
I should have listened to how it was bad
And I realized I demand so much better

The Best Thing

Everything started out so perfectly
Then it all started to fall apart
How could you do these things to me
I thought I could trust you with my heart

I kept trying so hard to show you
Just how perfect we could be
But our story is now ending
Cause you didn’t listen to me

Cause I could be the best you’ve had
But you didn’t listen to what I say
what I say
You could’ve had it all
could’ve had it all
but now you’ve lost your way

Now you find yourself so unsure
Only thing that will love you is yourself
Everything you touch turns to dust
And you feel like you’re in a living hell

But unlike what you’re going through
I feel like i’m living the dream
I thought you were the best thing for me
But nothing is ever what it seems

Now I’m the best i’ve ever been
Glad you didn’t listen to what I say
what I say
You don’t deserve my all
don’t deserve my all
And now I’ve found my way

 

Smoke and Mirrors

You came into my life
And tricked me into believing
How I could I believe the words you said
When you were so decieving

You worked your magic on me
I was so quick to fall
With every lie you told me
I would give you my all

But the illusion is slowly fading
I’m seeing past all your lies
I’ve found out how to get wiser
No longer will you trick me with your eyes

Now I’m breaking through the mirror
And seeing you for what you are
No longer will I be blinded by
Your undeserving heart

Cause I found out that your love
Is just smoke and mirrors
Why did I fall so easily
When ever you came near

You somehow mystified my heart
And hypnotized me with your stare
But you never truly loved me
You never really cared

But the mirror is now broken
And everything is clear as day
No longer will I be tricked by
All the lies that you’d say

Duel Sided Hero

You were once just a shell of a man
Had so much hell that you been through
And I guess you could say that I was the same
Cause in my eyes I already knew

People are always saying that you need
To step into their shoes to tell
Just how they became just who they are
Guess that’s how I knew you so well

But by finding someone that knows you
That see’s the beauty behind the pain
They have a way of repairing the armor
And cleaning off all the stains

We all need someone for protection
But sometimes we play that same role
So don’t be afraid to show who you are
And all the hell you’ve never told

Cause behind every downed warrior
Is a hero afraid to mourn
They need to learn to just let go
Only then will they be reborn

The Final Toast

You have always been there for me
Especially at times when I needed you most
So now I’ll be here for you right now
When it’s time to give you a final toast

Here’s to the times when I was about to break down
When I felt my world was crashing around me
And I was lucky to have you at my side
Cause you helped me find the peace I couldn’t see

How was I lucky to find someone like you
Who know’s where life would be without you
And if I had to say one last goodbye
Then here’s to the best friend I ever knew

Here’s to all the ups and downs
And the crazy times that we had
And the only person who could help
Lift me up when I was angry or sad

They were the best thing I ever found
And helped change me in so many ways
So here’s to telling them goodbye
Even when I wish they could stay

So Crazy Over You

I’m so tired of getting knocked down
When my heart doesn’t even make a sound
Why must you keep putting my through all of this
Then trying to end it with a kiss

You’ve hurt me so many times before
Do you even know what you’re searching for?
You need to stop haunting all of my dreams
Cause nothing is ever what it seems

You’ve found your way inside my mind
No matter what I do or say
You never let go of your hold on me
You are driving me so crazy
So crazy over you

Why must you do all of this to me
You’re making me lose my sanity
When I was once so in love with you
Has been torn apart by the things you do

The way you ripped my heart in two
With all of the shit that we’ve been through
No more will you haunt me while I sleep
Cause I’m so over you

Time to Collect My Chips

I’ve fought the same ole demons
And I’ve put the poison to my lips
More times than I could even name
But it’s time for me to collect my chips

I’ve seen the worst of times
And I’ve seen the battle I was afraid to start
But now I’m seeing how strong I can be
In this never ending war

This is the last time you will see me
Just break down and give in
Cause I’m tired of becoming the slave
To a house that never wins

My cards have been dealt
But I have the better hand
No more will I let myself turn into
A shell of a man